Evil is a Deed as I Live

There is darkness in the air
Death is in the souls
Of the little children,
All innocence is lost
No one cares anymore
Because no one can
Anymore
We are not the victims
Because we had to ability
The fight back
We, the soldiers
Cry out
And the civilians
Are the only one's with weapons
Just fighting the darkness
That is in the air
And the death
In the souls

Of the little children

My Anti-Depressant

Everything is different now. Everyone has changed, or maybe I just changed.


Right now, I've gone back to a sort of depression and it's taken me awhile to realize why.

I miss Julien...because I might love Julien







It's so weird to admit that. It's weird to even see it. I never thought I could possibly love anyone. But there it is.

Maybe it's because he's perfect. When I made the list of the things I wanted in a guy, I thought "no one could possibly fulfill all this, it's impossible".


Then I met him.


It took me awhile to realize it. He changed me. It was like he was my anti-depressant. Those evil thoughts never crossed my mind when I was with him. Not for a second.


I based everybody on him. If they weren't like him, I made a big deal of each flaw, alienating the people who cared about me, because they were not like him.

Just like I did when Darille was around

And now like Darille, he's gone. Well, not gone. Just off to college. And now I wonder, what would have happened if I was 3 years older or he was 3 years younger, or that we just met a few years ago.

But now I have so many people who are truly there for me. And that's wonderful. Just wonderful.